This was the case on a recent business trip (Feb 2002). Everything was in place: the hotel room to myself; a quiet night ahead; no early start the next morning, and a box of my femme accoutréments, including a new summer dress I bought on the drive into the city the previous day. Yet it was a real struggle to motivate myself to begin the lengthy process of showering, shaving, make-up etc. I almost chose to just lie on my bed and vegetate in front of the TV. I had to argue with myself, and rationalize that I would really, really regret it the next day if I didn't take advantage of this all too rare opportunity. In the end I shrugged off the indifference and made the effort. As is often the case, once I started, then my enthusiasm began to build and I was very glad that I hadn't wasted this rare chance to become Jennie once again.

I've not really tried to analyze this phenomenon to any great extent. So I can only take a wild guess at what the period of this ebb and flow is. It's certainly not a monthly cycle; I would estimate it's more like three months from peak to peak. . It must be hormonal I guess. If the desire is strong and co-incident with a business trip, then watch out, here comes Jennie and no-ones going to stop her! However, if the reverse is true, and my desire is low, then I may forego the opportunity altogether, despite the frustratingly long interval before my next trip.